"I don't know how I got this way, I know it's not all right."

I haven't blogged in nearly six months. Why? Well, I'll put it nicely and say I haven't cared much. And I've been busy. And tired. Graduating early is tough stuff. Worth it but tough. And honestly, I just haven't felt like expressing myself in awhile. I really don't tonight, I just kind of feel obligated.

What all's going on right now:

1. Indoor drumline - working with a bunch of kids my age and younger, none of whom respect me or want to do what I ask to be done. Yep. Great year. I LOVE being the captain of a group that doesn't like me */sarcasm*
2. College and scholarships - I've been accepted into North Texas and am awaiting Baylor, and meanwhile haven't filled out more than three scholarship applications, because I simply have been so busy and exhausted and depressed and worried that I haven't gotten much done.
3. Online class - stressful, busy, hopefully over soon.
4. School - ridiculous, surrounded by kids who don't give a flip about their education or about me, who openly text in class and back-talk the teachers and don't get in trouble because they're popular. Gotta love my school.
5. Church stuff - the fun stuff. Getting to go to Bible studies and mentorship meetings and volunteer time and youth group. This is the stuff I could do the rest of my life. No sarcasm at all. I'd rather spend six months in church than nine months in school.
6. Various other things - my grandma moved in with us, my aunt and uncle had their second daughter, my favorite guitar player of all time is quitting my favorite band, I'm in a constant spiritual battle with the devil, I'm doing a solo for band, I'm in UIL Spelling & Vocab, etc, etc.

Busy busy busy. Where, you ask, does God fit in? Wherever He wants. He's God. He can do that, and I'm trying to let Him.
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