Started school today. My first time driving to and from. Forgot to call my parents to let them know I was going home. Got scolded. Feel like absolute crap. It wrecked my day.

Back to school...

Socially, today wasn't as bad as I thought.

When it comes to the workload...I think I'll go crazy.

It's funny...when one thing gets better, something that was always good gets bad.

Gotta love it.

Even better that I don't fit in.

I'm not a junior, nor am I a senior. I'm just...there, and graduating. I'm a Christian, but I'm not preppy or athletic and I don't have a whole load of friends I can hang out with. I have a temporary crowd at lunch that leaves as soon as they finish eating, and I end up alone. It just really makes me wonder...do I even matter? I feel like I'm just existing in a school where I'm not entirely wanted. And for once, I'm not even sure I care. I've accepted that I'm not likable. Too chatty. Too nervous. Too whiny. Yadda yadda yadda. I think I'm destined to be alone.

And it doesn't even matter. It's not important. I'm just going to pretend it doesn't bother me. God has a plan behind this...I guess I'll just have to live with the pain for now.

I don't even know why I'm posting this. It's not like anyone reads this crap. I really am just a whiny, lonely 16-year-old.

Whatever.