I've had enough of living life for only me

That's it!

For the last few months, I've been fed up with being treated like I don't exist, or like a child, by a select few people. I AM NOT A CHILD. I HAVE AN EXISTENCE.

Meanwhile, from now on, I don't care who my friends are and who they're not. You want in my life, good, come on in. You don't, fine! I don't really care! I don't have time to deal with people that are going to ignore me anyway!

God gets all the glory. He deserves it. I'm not going to spend my life chasing after people, craving their approval. I'm going to praise God for everything I have and don't have, and pray that He blesses those that curse me. I always talk about change and I don't do it, well, it's time I do. I've been reading a lot of Scriptures about quarreling amongst the church and the body of Christ, and I don't want to be a part of that anymore!

So there. I just vented, because my current stress level is at the breaking point. Peace to you all.

Didn't want you to see me cry.

I guess it's time to be honest, since no one reads this anyway.

These last two weeks, I have wanted nothing more than to fall apart. I feel like the people in the Old Testament who loved God but lost sight or deliberately pulled away. It's like I want to be miserable, because I want to relapse more than anything right now. I know I said I wouldn't whine. I'm kicking myself mentally right now. But I think I may as well just let it all out. This is a blog after all.

My classes got all messed up last week and I spent most of Monday morning (June 7th) fixing them. My Geology class isn't bad but can be overwhelming, as can my online History class. I guess that's all okay.

All I'm tired of is being lonely. I'm not living for God like I should and as an end result I'm here, wanting to hurt myself, being lonely, and hating everything. Complete overhaul needed.

It's Been Awhile

Not good at keeping up with a blog.

So, as of last week, school is over...at least, high school, for the time being. On Monday, my MCC classes begin, and I'll hardly have time to do anything because of the many, many books I'm supposed to read.

A month and something days until SKILLET! And two months and six days until my sixteenth birthday. Wow, time flies...

I'm just randomly updating for no reason.

Ha.